I’m starting this on April 1, 2018. Nationally, we call that April Fools’ Day. It’s also Easter Sunday. Ironically, the joke’s on those who don’t accept the Resurrection, although it’s no laughing matter. Not by a long shot. But that’s apologetics, which I love, and that’s not what this journal is about.
It’s about prayer, communication with God. Dialogue. Listening and hearing and following the Shepherd Who “goes before me”. It’s about learning to really know His voice more confidently, because He promises that in John 10. More than going off lists, even lists which are for and about other people and serious, eternal situations—lists are good tools, but I think there is more.
And I feel unsafe. Interestingly, one of the books/video segments (John Eldredge on prayer) just last night talked about the spiritual warfare side of prayer, the personal part. He says not to shy away from spiritual warfare, but to deal with it. NOW. So, I’m realizing, (that is, this morning it comes to me, how do you suppose those dots were connected??), that this feeling of “unsafe” is just that—spiritual assault. If God sincerely desires for me to be more intimately communicative with Him, more effective in powerful prayer, and if He promises to protect me and guide me, then who d’ya think is trying like the devil to scare me off?
The devil. Right.
So, I need to deal with it. Now.
In the mighty Name of Jesus Christ, in the power of His Resurrection and the authority of His Ascension, I submit myself to Jesus, and in that same power and authority I resist Satan and all his emissaries of fear, instability, timidity, and related demonic powers who now must flee according to Almighty God’s command. Jesus, I bring myself under Your loving and tender authority and power and ask You to again cover me with Your blood, my heart, mind and soul, past, present and future, all of me and all that concerns me. I commit this journey to You, for Your glory, for Your kingdom come and will be done, as far as it concerns me. Make my communication with You as effective as You desire. Change my thought patterns, old ways of perceiving. I put my hand in Yours and accept Your guidance and protection. Here we go.
Speaking of feeling unsafe, I need to explore that a bit more. I crave safety and stability, but I also crave adventure. Kinda weird. Definitely a trust issue, knowing that Scriptures assures me God will guide me and not “forsake” me under any circumstances.
I remember the time as a young girl walking with my dad in a downtown area when we were visiting someplace. We came upon an alleyway interrupting the sidewalk, and Dad walked on, but I stopped to look and make sure (for myself) that it was safe. As I caught up to Dad he said, “what’s the matter, Dawn? Didn’t you trust me?”
Father, I don’t want to lag behind.
Now, this doesn’t preclude my own due diligence, not by a long shot. God gave me a brain and expects me to use it. So, when this prophecy by Joni Ames came down the pipe a few months ago, this “anointing for intercessory prayer”, I’m taking it seriously. Thus, my lists have taken a sabbatical, and my own personal study is being stepped up. My lists have been really good and important, but they make me feel too safe right now. As in, “there, that’s done, now let’s get on with it.” Not that God hasn’t spoken to me during my “list praying”; He most definitely has, with promises I cling to. And I know He has heard those prayers; they are still in His heart, like pictures a child would draw, and the parent keeps up on the frig, even years later.
I would like my artwork to become more powerful, like something hanging in the Louvre.
I also dream. Last night I had another one. I’ve purchased this brand-new smoke alarms, and just haven’t gotten around to hanging them up yet, (it’s been, what, maybe six weeks now?) Yesterday, I finally got out the directions and began figuring out what needs to be done. Yep, it’s going to take more than I hoped, as in drilling new holes to fit the new alarms. Again, I put it off until today, maybe tomorrow.
Last night I dreamed my dad was in the back room, drilling and hanging a new smoke alarm for me. (Dad could fix ANYTHING—one of those guys.) In my dream, I realized I hadn’t gotten enough alarms, and if Dad was here doing this for me, I’d better take advantage of it, and ran out to buy another!
This was not prophetic, at least not in the sense that my father is going to come hang my smoke alarms for me—at this writing, he’s in his late-80’s and lives a few states away. No, that process is definitely still on me. However, it does clue me into something very important: my Father (capital “F”) knows what I’ve been putting off getting done, knows that the process of doing it is essential for my safety (and the safety of others), and is doing surprising things under the radar to get me there.
And buying more smoke alarms is like bringing Him more prayers so He can put them in place.
The sunrise is coming up a beautiful dark pink. I wonder what time it was when the women ventured to the tomb and found it empty. Was it still dark, or did they wait for the sunrise to find out that the Son had indeed risen?
Happy Rez Day!